I have been seeing my ex quite often recently – as friends only. He is lonely and so am I so I thought it would not be a bad thing. Just over a week ago we spent the whole day together alone doing stuff that we used to do together. The evening ended on an intimate note which it should not have done. I was weak. I felt sorry for him. I felt sorry for me.
How can I forget the things he did. How can I not remember how he lied and pulled the wool over my eyes while he messed with other girls? Externally he creates the impression of being a kind and loving man – very considerate and such a gentleman – I know he does this – yet I let it work on me again. I also know that he lies and cheats. He has still not admitted to everything that happened.
And I frigging let him under my skin again! AM I MAD?
I don’t want him back. I know this. What am I doing? He is being so sweet and kind to me – is it real? Probably not? He is a psychologist. He messes with my stupid, stupid head. I LET him!!!!